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3:28 AM - September 15, 2010
Underground
She still drops flowers into the river, praying for safe passage.

12:35 AM - September 15, 2010
Hello Hello
Today, i saw at your male doppleganger, and he stared right back.

5:18 AM - September 14, 2010
Lament
Riding shotgun was a rare expierence for me when i was younger. Normally i was just squeezed amonst my aunts and mom in the back seat or forced on to the floor between their legs. So it was something special, when i got to ride with dad, a man who rarely acknowledged me. And we ended up lost, him asking directions from an eight year old and getting angrier with each passing moment. When we finally found a gas station and called my sister for help, i cried silently as he yelled into the phone. I knew then, false bravado could take you anywhere, and was dangerous.

12:14 AM - September 12, 2010
Akward Silences
Soon some silver tongued bastard is gonna steal that girl away boy, right under your nose, and you won't even know why...

6:07 AM - September 11, 2010
1 : 1

4:20 AM - September 11, 2010
Remote Control
I understand what you mean by never feeling like you belong. You can be around those who are supposed to mean the most to you, and still be alone. There are few people you will truely feel different around, and even they can't always surround you. So you begin to unconsciously put up walls, and hold yourself back. Thinking it will never be enough. (And sometimes it just isn't...)

8:47 PM - September 08, 2010
Calling Home
The pulse vibrates right through me, and it brings me back home. To a time, when a little girl hit the clothe's lines metal pole to make it ring, with what ever she could find. Everytime i hear it, i see her standing there, poised to strike.

4:34 AM - September 07, 2010
Fact 19
I was paid a dollar for my first kiss.

1:11 AM - September 07, 2010
Bare
This weather proves autumn has hit, even more so than the changing leaves and ripened fruit. It reminds me that Halloween is coming, and soon skeletons will be left hanging in their place. Like Katelynn, when the branch we were swinging her on broke.

6:11 AM - September 06, 2010
Sugar High
She laughed softly to herself thinking, yeah that's it, i love to much.

11:45 PM - September 04, 2010
Skill
It only looks easy.

7:20 PM - August 28, 2010
Every Time It Rains
He pretends to feel satisfied with just screwing around with other girls, but i know by the way he talks to me, i don't know what i'm missing. Instead he continues loving a girl he could never have, and understands, so he continues hitting on girls the complete opposite of her, allowing her a place in his heart. Forsaking everything she told him, walking back in the rain, side by side, smiling like a fool.

3:35 AM - August 26, 2010
Stoners
Walking back home from town, staring at the ground, singing exactly that. Orange sun glasses, brown frames, low light, sides ways cap and curling copper locks. Faded Friday The 13th t-shirt, black drawstring shorts and sunflower pumps. A racing white car, shouting and pumping fists, followed by a arm brushing leg. Still wondering who the fuck they were.

3:09 AM - August 26, 2010
Water Works
Some days turn out better others, and i'm forever grateful.

5:55 PM - August 25, 2010
Down Time
Please God, let this be all there is to it.

1:47 AM - August 25, 2010
High School Romances
I want a guy who's persistent and can put up with my moodiness. The random schemes. A guy who will chase squirrels up a tree when i point them out, just to make me smile. Someone who's interesting to look at, and willing to talk about anything. But most of all, someone who needs me more than i need them.

4:34 AM - August 24, 2010
Last Call
He never says goodbye anymore, to anyone, because he doesn't want it to end just like that. He lost his wife that way, in a fit of rage as he left his house, to find her dead when he got home. His daughter sitting on her feet.

1:33 AM - August 24, 2010
TMNT
So i finally met the guy of her dreams, and i'm impressed.

11:43 PM - August 22, 2010
Wrong Girl
Most guys overlook me, as one of them, or as family and i used to wonder if it was my fault, because i liked that role. Now i'm not so sure.

11:40 PM - August 22, 2010
Bad Taste
Who would of guessed it?

3:10 AM - August 22, 2010
Fact 24
My real name means luck and happiness.

2:58 AM - August 19, 2010
Meat Tenderizer
We finally got to go tubing upstream, 11 miles, and i couldn't get that goofy smile off my face. My feet are torn from walking two miles barefoot on the side of the highway, and blisters from before mud swallowing my sandles when it got knee high. Yet i'm happy, because damn it, at the moment we hit the water again, i almost cried in relief. It was heaven, and i didn't want to leave. Because even now i'm there, not nursing my aching, cut up feet.

4:59 PM - August 17, 2010
Dance A Little Jig
Still, i can't help but be charmed.

4:40 AM - August 15, 2010
Destiny
Kimura: I don't believe in anything.
Suzuki: Nothing, huh? Atleast believe in love, Kimura. Love is all you need.
-Tekkon Kinkreet

12:50 AM - August 15, 2010
Hanging Garden
Like thread, we were held up on impossible strings.

8:44 AM - August 14, 2010
Gratitude
She is everyone, and no one, so do not expect any less.

8:37 AM - August 14, 2010
Speak Not Of Temptation
I wonder what you would think of me, if you had known, that i had peeked. That i was not moved by your short story, which was forced, but by your secret confession handed in to our teacher. Of all the lies, and your shortcomings that you kept hidden. And how the words you used in it, only spoke of your ego, not catered to it.

8:09 AM - August 14, 2010
Slip
That day the scissors went missing from my hands, and no one commented on the scratches still bothers me. The fact i was in the principle's office, and blanked out doesn't help either.

7:04 PM - August 13, 2010
Adventures In Time
Ghosts in space part ll, scaring the shit out of aliens and reptoids near you.

8:04 PM - August 12, 2010
Bump In The Night
There was something in my room this morning, at 3:30. I heard them trip and saw a flash of skin and a silhouette, right before it disappeared. I admit i didn't go to sleep for awhile after, for there were eyes on me, and it's not always comfortable.

8:34 PM - August 11, 2010
Don't Leave Home
Sometimes i miss the house, with the leaking roof and rotting floorboards.

8:20 PM - August 11, 2010
Disturbance
Dealing with household problems has never been fun, but the water heater switch keeps kicking out by itself, it just warms the water and then it's like ice again. And as we are renting to own, the caretakers of the park won't help. They just bitch behind your back, and we don't have the money to pay anyone else. We won't be able to survive the winter like this, as the pipes will freeze. I doubt we can even afford moving. And i can't just keep turning it back on, or eventually a fire will result.

8:14 PM - August 10, 2010
Childhood Ends
"As long as you have the courage to reach out, and hold someones hand, you'll never be alone." -Peter, Peter Panda (Complete)

2:15 AM - August 10, 2010
My Karma Ran Over Your Dogma
Lately i can't stand myself or anyone really, this inherited stubborness is disabling me. I don't want to reach out, or deal with anything beyond myself. Perhaps it's because i'm scared shitless of what is coming, and am in hiding.

2:52 AM - August 09, 2010
Forever, And For Always
Damn it, why do i still think of you?

7:23 AM - August 07, 2010
The Dish Ran Away With The Spoon
Some people say you can't break what's already broken. You can keep smashing the pieces into smaller bits, but it won't matter because it's all the same. It's all just a fraction of the pain.

6:26 AM - August 06, 2010
Time Capsules (Y2K)
Hey, do you remember sitting of the swings, talking about time capsules and the end of the world? Light kicks and feet digging in the sand. That's what i remember most about you. (Swing High, Swing Low)

6:24 AM - August 06, 2010
Chords
The boys from my childhood are gone, and with them, the last of our innocence.

4:11 AM - August 05, 2010
Fumes
"The Promise And The Threat, Evans Blue"

4:03 AM - August 05, 2010
Duck Duck Goose
If your so mad at them, stop calling them back already. It's disturbing...

1:37 AM - August 05, 2010
Tempered Glass, Telephone Booths
On impulse she consulted the tarot cards, and pulled out the eight of swords, to find it described her situation perfectly. How she's been feeling...

3:50 AM - August 03, 2010
Tang
I think you've figured it out by now, eventually i will tell you what you want to hear.

12:31 AM - August 02, 2010
Sand And Stone
"So lately, been wondering / Who will be there to take my place / When i'm gone you'll need love / To light the shadows on your face." -Wherever You Will Go, The Calling

3:03 AM - July 31, 2010
Negative Creep
She knows that guy from somewhere, and she just can't place him.

2:40 AM - July 31, 2010
Stolen Hearts
A few hours later, we had a one year old run up to us, his doting father trailing. He stopped right before our eyes, and took in the sight. Two girls strewn across beach towels, just out of the main area and a boy sitting parellel to them. And all the father could say was, he came to steal our shoes, and that his child was a kleptomaniac.
(To note Katelynn commented that's what my husband would look like, and how he would behave.)

2:39 AM - July 31, 2010
Cute Blonds
At the fountain yesterday, Katie and i huddled against the cool wall, watching the crowds around us. Suddenly an unknown three year boy dived towards us and came to sit beside me, knees to his chest. To say i shocked speechless was an understatement. A few minutes later he stood up, seeing his mom and said to me, "did you know you could come up in the big dinosaurs mouth?" before disappearing towards her. Katelynn replied yes, and proceeded to laugh at me as i knodded dumbly.

6:02 AM - July 29, 2010
Limitations
If you want to run away so badly, want to die, don't do it drunk. Your child is already suffering, without you screaming in her face. Who are you really trying to convince anyway? You keep on repeating the same lines over and over again. Nothing else changes...

7:52 PM - July 28, 2010
Paper Walls
When she smiles, does your heart still beat?

7:40 PM - July 28, 2010
Ability
"Without the approach run, just jump and fly as high as you can,
At our kicking speed, we can go on forever, i'm sure of it.
Even light, even darkness, surely." -Tekkon Kinkreet @ Livejournal

5:36 AM - July 28, 2010
Twelve
Feel in love with Tekkon Kinkreet today.

2:55 AM - July 26, 2010
Out Of Print
What i want most at the moment? What i want is the rest of the DVD manhwa volumes in english, because damn it, i wasn't finished yet.

9:55 AM - July 24, 2010
Lmao
"BECAUSE I'M THE MOTHER FUCKING PETER PAN!" -Peter, Wendy (Complete)

4:23 AM - July 24, 2010
Thrice
I have randomly been surprized by people throwing cotton candy at me, and the inevitable joy that it has happened three times this month now.

5:02 AM - July 23, 2010
Call My Bluff
"What are you most afraid of?" -Nanako, Doll Star (Complete)

10:07 PM - July 22, 2010
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She walks into the water.

9:51 PM - July 22, 2010
Clones
Have you ever listened to thirteen year old girls talk? It's all about boys, brands and make up. The hottest gossip, and who's gonna date who. There's no real awareness to anything beyond themselves. It's times like these i miss you most.

10:51 PM - July 20, 2010
Talcum Poisoning
I doubt i ever really hated him, but that doesn't mean i want him in my life again. It doesn't mean i never loved him, it's just at this moment, i resent him more.

10:04 AM - July 20, 2010
It Never Ends
Even the rain sounds like it's knocking.

9:46 AM - July 20, 2010
Hugs
Bradie likes to play sharks, and watch me get eaten. Pulling my clawed hands apart, and saving me. Of relishing in the attention.

9:38 AM - July 20, 2010
Miscount
I was graceful like a rock, and that's why i have bruises on my right hand, elbow and knee. Scratches spelling skill. And yes somewhere, woodland animals are indeed laughing at me.

9:28 AM - July 20, 2010
Like Father, Like Daughter
We were both dropped on our heads, there's no point in denying it.

6:52 AM - July 20, 2010
Akuma De Sourou
Kayano: Why can't you think of your own happiness? (Knows he's a good person)
Youhei: ...No (Almost hesitates)
Kayano: Your method of loving, is to tragic... (Understanding)
Youhei: Shut up, Shut up!! (He is getting ready to attack her)
Youhei: Kayano you... You will never understand our feelings (For Rika, he would do anything...)

4:22 AM - July 20, 2010
Want
I dreamt of wearing costumes, of being a tree, and of the other person being the dock. The rope was slack between us.

5:11 AM - July 19, 2010
Phenotype
I told my nephew his hair was dirty blonde, and he told me it was because he was working at his papa's farm.

7:24 AM - July 18, 2010
Foolish Girls
"Everything You Want, Vertical Horizen."
(Sometimes you find the perfect words to describe us both.)

7:10 AM - July 18, 2010
Labyrinth
"Love without your heartbeat.." -Within Me, David Bowie (Jareth)

3:24 AM - July 18, 2010
Hysteria
If i could go back in time and change one thing, i would of never said no.

8:22 AM - July 17, 2010
Absolute
In the end i think, the only real change any of us want, is to the amount of people that love us, and how much.

6:06 AM - July 17, 2010
Bellow
And when your around people too, do you feel drained, and then lock yourself away?

5:58 AM - July 17, 2010
Head Hunters
It's like living in small bursts of energy, and then dying. I've always been like that.

10:20 PM - July 15, 2010
Orientation (7 Years Ago)
She snapped at the teachers, for she didn't want anything to do with goals or this bullshit theme. It had already been a month. She didn't believe in making them. "But isn't that one itself, to avoid them?", he had asked annoyed. My heart immediately went out to that girl. They will never stop trying to pin you down.

7:15 AM - July 14, 2010
Eloquence
Your looking for someone to save you girl, but you can't count on anyone else. One day they will fail you, and your throat will be cut.

7:09 AM - July 14, 2010
Haunting You Still
He was never anyone special, but when she sang to him, well sometimes he forgot.

12:36 AM - July 13, 2010
Who Did You Think I Was?
That's a important question, and despite being unsure of who it's for, i would like to answer.
The day i met you, i thought how am i gonna do this, reach out to this girl? She doesn't seem like anything special, or really interesting, but i did what had been asked of me, expected of me. I asked you to come with me.
You were quiet at first, but then i got you talking and i thought oh she isn't so bad. I could come to like this girl in time. When you were listening to my music expressionless, and when you first tried pomegranites, that shock.
I was grateful to of met you.
Someone who was lonely like me, and had struggled, still struggles. Someone who was passionate, and would never truely give up.
I liked that about you, and how you saw your friends, long gone. Even if you never noticed yourself, you never stopped caring about them, about anyone. I thank you for it.
I started to love, adore you, and you became like family. You became my best friend. You began to mean something to me.
I could let you go and i would always regret it.
You're a wonderful person and i keep taking advantage of your kindness, because i'm selfish. Sometimes i'm even abit jealous of who you will become, because i can already see it.. Your gonna amaze yourself.
Because nothing else really matters.

3:53 AM - July 11, 2010
Melody
Somewhere a girl smiled.

3:36 AM - July 11, 2010
Big Mamma's House
Aunty's question was, "isn't that the movie with the two flashlights in bed?"

2:52 AM - July 11, 2010
Drinking Games (Humor)
List of things that happened after them:
Slept On Floor
Didn't Make It Over Fence
Discovered Drunk Holes
Found Crackers
Drank Myself Sober
Played At The Park
Pole Danced On A Stop Sign
Sang Karoake
Walked Straighter Then I Do Normally
Ate Bulk Wieners At Two In The Morning With A Equally Drunk Twelve Year Old On The Steps, Partially Unknown
Been The Last One Awake
Mastered The Swings
Got Freaked Out By Noises On The Nature Trail At Night
Walked Home Single File, According To Drunkeness
Was A Tease
Had Enough
Went Trick Or Treating
Fell In Love
Watched The Stars
Made 1am Tacos
Managed To Look Sober
Got Distracted
Held Hands
Climbed An Elephant
Rode A Metal Horse
Spilt My Drink
Got Kissed
Drank Mexican Lobotomies
Woke Up Partially Under Table
Stared At Spinning Floor From Couch Arm
Swore
Drank The Next Day
Was Praised
Played Hide And Go Seek In The Dark
Was Grateful For The Hangovers, That Don't Appear The Day After

7:50 AM - July 10, 2010
Razor Nicks
After a couple hours of off and on argueing, i broke the showers hot water handle. Spent an hour half covered in soap trying to fix it, before giving up. Got yelled at again, for waking mom a fifth time to help. She gave up after ten minutes of trying, and i almost cried in frustration. Then ran back and forth, from kitchen and bathroom sinks to fill the tub with hot water. Got soap in my fucking eye a few mins in and couldn't get it all out. Have to wake up early tomorrow morning. And all i can think, is fuck i let my guard down. I got ahead of myself.

12:02 AM - July 10, 2010
Deep Fried Barbie Doll
Deep down, who are you really?

6:53 PM - July 09, 2010
Refraction
It's like looking into speculum metal, you can see yourself, but it's still blurry. So you bring it closer to your face, because you really want to see what's there. You lose sight of the bigger picture. What will make you really happy, a glimpse or the real thing? And when you pull it away, do you truely feel safe anymore?

8:01 AM - July 09, 2010
Paranormal Studies
Waking the dead with every tap of my keys.

7:36 AM - July 09, 2010
Doppelgaenger
And when you fall in love with the mirror, does it fall in love with you?

6:32 AM - July 09, 2010
Trigger
I want the rush, and the scars. It's knowing i can't hide which stops me. It's them knowing.

5:07 AM - July 09, 2010
Love Like Winter
Perhaps what you really love isn't about her, but an echo, a desperate imitation of yourself. And we know this already, don't we?

4:56 AM - July 09, 2010
Date
I've got this feeling of excitement bubbling within me, that rarely reaches the surface. (It's that girl you fell in love with.)

1:57 AM - July 08, 2010
Applaud Listverse
Seriously, smoking catnip or drinking salamander brandy? The lengths people go to, to discover new highs...

11:09 PM - July 07, 2010
Clipped Wings
"You are my wings to fly, you are the wind beneath them." -Falling In Love, Falling Up

7:30 AM - July 07, 2010
Pepperoni
They looked at me like was crazy, but it's true. Mcdonald's used to sell pizzas, and few students ordered anything else when i was younger.

5:44 AM - July 07, 2010
Tokyo Crazy Paradise (Completed)
He loved her from the beginning, and until the end. His observation journal overflowing, so he could never forget a moment.

2:47 AM - July 07, 2010
High
"Some people think your a burn out / Because you live your life in a haze / But who is anyone to try and tell you how / How you should spend the best of your days / You never dream cuz your barely sleeping / But still you keep your head in the clouds / You never come back down / Never come back down " -Born To Bleed, A Thorn For Every Heart

11:08 PM - July 06, 2010
Headbutt
I would like to believe i'm not that angry little girl anymore, but i doubt i will ever completely out grow her.

6:51 AM - July 06, 2010
Purple Grass
He said i hid behind my questions...

6:33 AM - July 06, 2010
Messiah Complex
Despite what certain thirteen year old girls believe, good people are not determined by looks, grades and popularity.

 

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